Can I escape you?

I really want to.

I want to build a rocket ship

Send my heart to Mars

Let my emotions live among the stars

Fuck these feelings they drown me anyway

Fuck this weak shit I’m stronger everyday

Fuck this mindset where being friends is ok

Fuck this lust, fuck these lies

Fuck that fantasy touch of your hand on my thighs

Fuck that kiss

Fuck feeling like this

Fuck you

Fuck ME wishing

You

Would….

Touch me.

Fuck being deep and writing poetry

Fuck everything that was

Or could never be

Fuck a being a girl and all dramatic

Fuck drinking to be calm

Only to become erratic

Fuck butterflies and cautious smiles

Fuck distance and fuck the miles

Fuck the heart they say grows fonder

But it seems they make some wander

But fuck exploration

Fuck limitations

Fuck your monogamy

But that’s wrong

Right

So basically all this time was

a giant FUCK YOU

To lonely ME