Lonely Me

June 20, 2017June 20, 2017Leave a comment

Can I escape you?

I really want to.

I want to build a rocket ship

Send my heart to Mars

Let my emotions live among the stars

Fuck these feelings they drown me anyway

Fuck this weak shit I’m stronger everyday

Fuck this mindset where being friends is ok

Fuck this lust, fuck these lies

Fuck that fantasy touch of your hand on my thighs

Fuck that kiss

Fuck feeling like this

Fuck you

Fuck ME wishing

You

Would….

Touch me.

Fuck being deep and writing poetry

Fuck everything that was

Or could never be

Fuck a being a girl and all dramatic

Fuck drinking to be calm

Only to become erratic

Fuck butterflies and cautious smiles

Fuck distance and fuck the miles

Fuck the heart they say grows fonder

But it seems they make some wander

But fuck exploration

Fuck limitations

Fuck your monogamy

But that’s wrong

Right

So basically all this time was

a giant FUCK YOU

To lonely ME

About Me…..

June 2, 2017Leave a comment

She danced in the moonlight

Until the sun rose

She smiled at her heartache

Because she knew from her pain

She grows.

She is strong, yet fragile

She is beautiful and flawed

Broken and complete

She is everything, enough and too much

She is loved

She is blessed.

And she is ME.

Pen to Paper

January 28, 2017January 28, 2017Leave a comment

Putting pen to paper

The only way to savor

This feeling

To hold on to this dream

Fingers stained with ink

Makeup smeared

With tears

Heart broke

Well not whole

As I sit and long for home

Tired of waiting for mountains to move

Waiting for clouds to shift

Waiting for something other than this shit

Putting pen to paper

Because I’ll look crazy

In the bar

If I just scream

But I’m sure the patrons

Can clearly see in busting at the seams

Filled with anger, hope and fear

Praying daily for a way out of here

Basically begging but feel think my requests

Just hit deaf ears

Slamming pen into paper

Paper rips

Not strong enough to handle this

Contain My rage

But I am

This time is temporary

This life is not my cage

I am free

Meant to fly

Meant to soar

Show this world I am so much more

More than your ideas

For my delicate frame

I plan to leave a legacy behind

You’ll remember my name

1 sip at a time

November 4, 2016November 5, 20161 Comment

I never believed in Disney

fairy tales didn’t mean that much to me

I knew I wasn’t princess

But shit I couldn’t care less

Fuck your shinging you shimmering

Your splendid

That bullshit all ended

Ended before it all began

Let’s see where to start

Where exactly did

A young girl lose her heart

Was it the boys

Who teased her endlessly

Was it the girls who said her dreams

Will never be

Was it the pain

When a grown man

Touched her

Childhood frame

Was it the days she longed for a father

But he was locked away

He didn’t care

Anyway

It could have been any day

So many memories to wash away

So to my dear friend Vodka

I say…..

Hello love

How are you doing

Are you cold love

Is it a driver we’re screwing

Or on ice

With a twist of lime

I promise to take you 1 sip

1 sip

1 sip at a time

This time

This time

It will be fine